Single Life

So I woke up at a nice early time today, 7am on a Sunday. I put the coffee on, go the computer and put NPR on while I check the emails, myspace, facebook and whatever else there is to check in this modern world. "It's Sunday, the Lord's Day, You don't need no quarters" as I was once told. So I get through most of my morning and then the call comes..."can you take me to the store?" my niece has called me to take her, her boyfriend and youngest child to the store, I told them I wasn't showered, and they said maybe my sister will babysit the baby, etc and then that doesn't come to surface so (I've already hopped in the shower between first and second calls) and am ready to go. Dropping my sister off at the pizzeria (that she works at) and take them to the store. To which they offer to buy me groceiries, to which I must confess I have no grocery shppping ability and (to which she make references to) get very few things.
Alas, to my thought. I don't get many calls from friends anymore, we are all to busy with our own lives, (most of them coupled) or they are doing something like dog sitting (b/c that is something one of them totally does) to which I am left alone and then it hit at the second grocery store amist the aniexty attack that is building "Is this the Single Life". Is that what happens when you come to certain age? Do people start going their own ways more often then not, become so involved that we get fleeting moments of friendships? This came to mind b/c I'm thinking of having a "Welcome to the Late Twenties" party for my 27th birthday in January. So is this what the next stage of my life holds now? Late night movies by myself with a pizza, grocery shopping for one surronded by families with crying kids, enying the couples walking in the park around you?
However that did bring me to another thought, am I a Wolf in Sheeps clothing? I recently cancled a date I was suppose to go on, I had gone out to celebrete election night and was more then a little hung over the following day, dragged myself through work and didn't feel up to meeting this person, however the under lying factor was that I didn't really have any interest in meeting this person. I will play the game with him, talk naughty to him and I don't really want to make naughty a reality but then it came to me......Have I ever really wanted a relationship? I envy those people in them, but I love my personal space and I don't easily connect to people. I have an old world, little world interest of farmer's markets, local events, regional events, etc and most people don't, I find that most people I encounter in the communtiy don't want monogamy, the couple that plays together stays togther it seems. Now I don't want to give a bad name to the gay communtiy and this is only my thoughts and opinions and as always this is in the search for myself. So I guess we will have to see where we go from here. Where does my Single Life take me and will it always be the Single Life?