Roaming Charges May Apply

So I recently noticed that I've lost connection, with friends, family, coworkers and the world.

I should have taken notice when I started to blank out when speaking with customers, either not paying attention to their concern, reading into it or just not listening to them at all and politely asking them to repeat themselves to "ensure I understood their request". Next I should have noticed when I started analyzing my friends and their problems. The interest, although initially based upon our friendship the further digging into the problem feeds my interest to understand people and the world better. There may also be a slight "hippy" factor in this interest as I, in my own personal growth came from analysing my own issues to better understand them. Through knowledge and understanding we will become better people.

I do however feel that in this effort I've lost a piece of my heart, if any of it was left anyways. I feel that in these experiences, at least on my side that I'm not as heartfelt connected as I use to be. I don't know how the other feels about these conversations but do generally sense when they are tired of being examined and when I grow tried of the conversation and work to change the topic of the conversation will generally fall into a blank mindset with little to no conversation being held.

Am I a horrible person that I choose to breakdown my friends problems, maybe not because for the most part it's not a malicious effort. It's my interpreted method to achieve an understanding of the situation we are in.

Maybe this rational mindset is because I am somewhat at peace within, I've come to understand things and rationalize how the world works so with that all is calm. However with that I think I've come to some reservations that I must break within myself. Somewhere in my life I've become very reserved, masking details of my life and showing what seems fit. I've lost my sense of adventure, my spirit to get out there in the winds of the world.

So with a greater connection to myself I've lost my connection to the world, and when I was connected to the world, the spiritual world I had no connection with myself. So how do I establish a balanced connection, regain my joy, regain my sense of adventure and keep going from here. I guess that is what this journey here is to discover.